Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Some things I've learned about myself as of late,
well, not really, I've probably always known these things
but lately I've been trying to realize why I do the things, 
(or don't do,) the things I do.
-I can't put things together, which is why I can't
accessorize, decorate my house, or make collages.
-I don't like a lot of high key stimulation, I think I need plenty
of down time/ alone time.
-I talk to myself, ALL THE TIME, really. Not loud, almost a whisper.
 Especially when I'm in the car, sometimes my kids here me and say
"what did you say?" me "oh nothing"
-I like the simple things in life, I don't have to have the frilly,
sparkly, top of the line anything. Which is why you usually
see me in flip flops, jeans and a t shirt. Which might also go back
to the fact that I can't accessorize? Not meaning I don't love new 
things, I just don't have to have them all the time.
-I repress things, I've been telling Greg for years that I don't, that I just deal
well with problems. But I've realized these past few years that I do,
 and it doesn't bother me at all, because that IS how I deal with life.
Don't think about it, don't stress, (except that it come out in my skin!)
-I either say to much or say it to harshly. I don't know how to sugar coat.
I admire people (Mekel, Megan and many others) who can say anything to
anyone and have it come out nice and gentle. You always leave a conversation
with these types of people feeling better about yourself.
-I forget things. call this person, mail this bill, I forget, I get sidetracked,
I don't think I forget the big things, which is more important, right?
-Some say I can be controlling, mostly my kids, but I've
 noticed at school if we have to work in group, I want it my way.
Which is lame I know because I don't always have the best ideas.
(most of the time, but not always, I'm kidding, ) 
-I prefer straight lines? and proper forms, which is why is love
the bauhaus style, maybe it's more masculine than feminine, I don't know.
- I really love history, epecially art history. I love learning about the past
 and why people and cultures did what they did, why things are the way 
they are now because of some thing that happened 2 thousand years ago. 
Which is why I've been wondering why I do the things I do.
-In my mind I'm organized, but only in my mind, not my house.
-I suck at spelling and I really hate math, I mean I would go through
child birth again to get out of passing my math class. You think
I'm kidding but I'm not, it's that bad, ask Greg.

P.S.
I'm adding a few more. I read this to Greg and he reminded
me of a few more thing I should know about myself.
-I always procrastinate, I wait until the last minute, and somehow
pull it off. (most of the time) which drives him up the wall.
-If I don't want to do something I pretend it's not there (math homework)
-I love to sleep, and take naps.
-He thinks I don't get stressed out, and that's why I can procrastinate.
 but I do get stressed out I just deal with it way different than him.
 I do what has to be done right then, and it goes from there. 

These are just a few things that I have been thinking about.
so there you go............



 

4 comments:

a wynn wynn situation said...

Now that was a great read! I loved learning more about you and some things I found surprising. My only correction would be that you totally know how to accessorize. Every Twilight event we've been to you have been smokin' with a cute little outfit on and jewelry to boot. Just because you choose to keep it simple day to day doesn't mean you don't have the skills :)

Wesley Family said...

That was a great read! I can relate with you on some of those things, especially the forgetfulness thing. I like simple things too. I am always wearing plain old shade shirts with nothing on top (I think they are meant to go under nicer shirts, but I don't really care). The only jewelry I ever wear in my wedding ring!

lori parkhurst said...

You always look very accesorized! I like you just the way you are! You are awesome!

Jandee said...

I'm with on the masculine lines. But what are you talkin' about your not into accessorizing, you always have cute jewelry and beads. with the flip flops ya that is true you are always wearing them- but hey they are fast to put on and comfy and that's what mom's need. hope you are getting some relaxin' during you spring break. -jandee