Some things I've learned about myself as of late,
well, not really, I've probably always known these things
but lately I've been trying to realize why I do the things,
(or don't do,) the things I do.
-I can't put things together, which is why I can't
accessorize, decorate my house, or make collages.
-I don't like a lot of high key stimulation, I think I need plenty
of down time/ alone time.
-I talk to myself, ALL THE TIME, really. Not loud, almost a whisper.
Especially when I'm in the car, sometimes my kids here me and say
"what did you say?" me "oh nothing"
-I like the simple things in life, I don't have to have the frilly,
sparkly, top of the line anything. Which is why you usually
see me in flip flops, jeans and a t shirt. Which might also go back
to the fact that I can't accessorize? Not meaning I don't love new
things, I just don't have to have them all the time.
-I repress things, I've been telling Greg for years that I don't, that I just deal
well with problems. But I've realized these past few years that I do,
and it doesn't bother me at all, because that IS how I deal with life.
Don't think about it, don't stress, (except that it come out in my skin!)
-I either say to much or say it to harshly. I don't know how to sugar coat.
I admire people (Mekel, Megan and many others) who can say anything to
anyone and have it come out nice and gentle. You always leave a conversation
with these types of people feeling better about yourself.
-I forget things. call this person, mail this bill, I forget, I get sidetracked,
I don't think I forget the big things, which is more important, right?
-Some say I can be controlling, mostly my kids, but I've
noticed at school if we have to work in group, I want it my way.
Which is lame I know because I don't always have the best ideas.
(most of the time, but not always, I'm kidding, )
-I prefer straight lines? and proper forms, which is why is love
the bauhaus style, maybe it's more masculine than feminine, I don't know.
- I really love history, epecially art history. I love learning about the past
and why people and cultures did what they did, why things are the way
they are now because of some thing that happened 2 thousand years ago.
Which is why I've been wondering why I do the things I do.
-In my mind I'm organized, but only in my mind, not my house.
-I suck at spelling and I really hate math, I mean I would go through
child birth again to get out of passing my math class. You think
I'm kidding but I'm not, it's that bad, ask Greg.
P.S.
I'm adding a few more. I read this to Greg and he reminded
me of a few more thing I should know about myself.
-I always procrastinate, I wait until the last minute, and somehow
pull it off. (most of the time) which drives him up the wall.
-If I don't want to do something I pretend it's not there (math homework)
-I love to sleep, and take naps.
-He thinks I don't get stressed out, and that's why I can procrastinate.
but I do get stressed out I just deal with it way different than him.
I do what has to be done right then, and it goes from there.
These are just a few things that I have been thinking about.
so there you go............